I often wonder what caused this 'broken' trend. Is it just normal life and I did not realize it so much before because I had a partner to help with life's problems, thus lessening them? Or did my Ex curse me? Is it because of some cosmic position? Does a broken marriage unlease the broken elves to cause havoc? Please share with me your perception of this phenomon.
I know I want to fix my life. I want to release from the life that everything breaks and free myself to another existence. I am just not sure how. Because even though I could imagine my Ex would blame me for breaking the garage door because I was using it wrong - ya know pressing the button wrong. LOL The truth of the matter I could not break it if I wanted. It is a giant, heavy duty spring!
Is it my additude? I came home from my intensive study week tired, but inspired. The future looked beautiful and everything seemed possible then I could not even turn the computer on. Next thing I know I am crying and life seems stacked too high against me. Of course I dry my eyes and carry on. Out to the garden I go where I don't need any high tech tools, only sweet water is needed to make my flowers grow.
Perhaps I am overly emotional since it has been 8 days since I have last seen my daughter as she is spending time over at her Daddy's.
Tomorrow will be a better day!